For the last year (at least), My calling at church has been the Compassionate Service Leader. This means that I get to arrange dinners for families when they have new babies, surgeries and extreme sickness and deaths. I get a few other random assignments, but dinners is the main gist of it! That's right! I am "in charge" of the dinner after funerals. That is the most time consuming, stressful part of my calling. Luckily, I've only had to arrange for two funerals. Last week was for sweet Roxy Marshall. The dinner was for 120 people! I am not a caterer and I never want to run a restaurant. I'm lucky to get a dinner on the table every evening! So this part of the calling is a stretch for me. It has been a good thing because now I feel that I could do a large dinner if I had to - Whereas, before this calling, I would fall into a deep chasm of worriness and fear. Luckily, my ward is very kind to assist with these dinners. We had over 50 assist in some way (bring food, donate money or help in the kitchen.) The menu was very original - Ham, green beans w/ bacon, potato casserole, green salad, jello salad and a roll. Brilliant! The dinner went well and I am grateful for callings that force me to grow!
While I may not always have this calling, I will probably always be destined to have compassion. I cry too easily for other people and am always trying to figure out how to make everyone happy and "better." On Sunday, I broke down in Relief Society and had to leave because my heart hurts for a sister that can't have children, a friend whose child has a disability and another friend who is still single (but would love to be married). I am grateful that I have am able to feel compassion and that I enjoy giving service!!!